Wandering aimlessly is a terrible position to be in, but loitering somewhere could be worse. Life can be pretty much the same. There are times where we have no idea what we’re doing, and where we should be going. We feel lost, and just with someone would tell us what to do. Other times, we know where we should be going and what we should be doing, but we lack the motivation to get there. “I’ll get there eventually” we tell ourselves, and instead of reaching for our true potential, we squander it, wasting time in meaningless pursuits. We hope the distractions will bring us happiness, when in the back of our minds, we realize that if we were just willing to put in the effort, the fruits of our labors would be what brings us the fulfillment we lack.
This blog is an opportunity for me to tackle both those things in my life. Recently, I had what my wife called a “mid-mid-life crisis”. I was trying to decide whether or not to be involved in a particular activity at my church, and I shared my conundrum in the form or a question on my radio show. One caller piped in that she had let some things go in her life due to the fact that they didn’t match up to her life calling. She asked, point blank, “Do you know what your life calling is?” I was speechless.
It’s not that I’m completely aimless mind you, but the generic answers sounded so flat. “I’m called to serve God and my family and be a good husband and be a good father and be a good employee.” But what does that all mean? Addtionally, what does it mean when you list those things off, but they’re not the things that you’re excited about? Does that mean it’s not really my calling, or is it just my fault that I haven’t applied myself?
So I came home and spent the evening on the couch, talking with my wife about everything swirling in my head. “I need to do something worthwhile with my spare time,” I said. “I need to find something I can do and pursue with passion.” Being the wise woman that she is, my wife suggested this blog. She knows that I’ve struggled with some of these things for a while, but that perhaps I was spending more time worrying about them, and not enough time actually evaluating and searching for answers. That’s what I hope this blog to be: an extension of me.
That might include me figuring out what it means to have a calling, or what it means to be man. How does one step into and work toward maturity in a society where it’s increasingly easy to sit on the couch and play video games? It might also be inspiration or reviews from something I’ve been reading or watching. Hopefully, I may add input from others in the future as well.
I don’t claim to have all the answers, and there’s a distinct possibility that the answers I come up with will be wrong. So feel free to chime in at any point, share where you are on your journey, and maybe we’ll get where we’re going together.